from time to time, i don't feel like being alive.
it seems cool to be nothing.
not being anything which one can see, smell, touch, feel, define, describe, notice, interact with and love.
from time to time, i don't feel like being alive.

12 - 23 Apr 2009
We parted in the airport, leaving our unfinished game of Sunstone Swap in your iPhone...
I flied to Santa Ana, spent 5 days with my family.
It's a quiet place, just 10 minutes drive from the Huntington Beach, weather was wonderful, 18'C with lots of sunshine.
Met many cousins, uncles and aunts, and a doctor, who's very famous in Orange County...
Uncle gave me a magazine when i left, with the cover featuring him, and there I learnt his story.
The next destination was Denver, for the Annual Meeting of American Association of Cancer Research. I flied to Denver for 1.5 times... why?
There was a snowstorm in Denver and my plane made a 180'C turn back to Orange County, we were just half way to Denver... Since I had no idea what's going to happen, though with my experience in Germany (nothing could be worst than that, I always tell myself...), I didn't have to worry much. But my mobile was having a problem coz the stupid 3 didn't activate my global roaming and I technically couldn't make any local/international call. Feeling a bit insecured, I started to chat with the Korean guy who sat next to me. Alex Kim, aged ~35, lives in Denver, married and has two kids (He showed me his family photo and the Korean kids are super cute!). He was in L.A. for regular business trip and he told me it has never happened before, for a plane to make its way back. He said it snowed on the mountain all the time, and becoz of an unexpected current, the snow was blown to the city and this's how snowstorm happened. He missed his kids badly and now his family weekend's ruined, he was so devastated. We chat all the way back to Orange County and we parted as he went to the information counter to book a hotel while i went to borrow a phone from the flight attendent. So i contacted my uncle and he came to pick me up, at the same time my global roaming finally worked so i ringed Dexter and told him what happened.

It was a tiring night, i could barely sleep, and i'd better not sleep too deep coz i had to get to the airport by 7am... Aunt drove me there as uncle had to give a speech at USC's graduation ceremony. Alex and I met at the gate again and we had a nice long chat. He told me he's feeling much better now coz last night as he strolled around the neighbourhood of the hotel he was staying, he was invited to a studio and learnt a few social dance moves. He was so delighted and trying to memorize the moves so he could dance with his wife later. We shook hands before we boarded and wished each other a nice and safe trip to Denver. :)

I finally made my way to Denver... Judy and Thomas were waiting for me in the hotel room. They were lucky to be able to land last night in the snow, while many other HKU people got stucked in L.A. airport - overnight! These 5 days i learnt a bit and ate a lot... 3 nights out of 4, i had 22oz steak as dinner, jesus... they tasted soooooo gooooood!!!

Yet, except the steaks and the chit-chat with any people you meet in shops or cafe or on the street or anywhere... , USA has basically nothing that attract me...

24 Apr 2009 (Fri)
6am, back to HK.
Saw you waiting for me at the gate, i was touched, but it was hard to give any responses like crazy hugging or kissing, coz i'm really so damn knackered after the long-haul flight...
you took a day off and we enjoyed a long deep sleep. :)

25 Apr 2009 (Sat)
woke up at 6am
jetlag...
26 Apr 2009 (Sun)
woke up at 6am
jetlag still...
27 Apr 2009 (Mon)
woke up at 6am
not a bad thing coz i can go to work early, very early indeed...
recharged and feel good to pick up my project again!

謝謝你煮的南瓜豬排.
雖然質數有待提昇...

care?

i can't feel that.

can't believe i'm digging into these...

近日, 我失去了工作的動力.

今天, 你說願意跟我到歐洲闖蕩, 還說最少要待五年...
你係至好講!!!

6 Apr 2009 (Mon)
Start preparing the journal club presentation with my vietnamese partner Chieu. Both of us haven't read the whole paper yet... Since our tutor's still in France and the Pasteur Institut director's taking up her duty for a while, briefing us through the paper. He was kind of disappointed when he heard that I haven't read it yet, and said to me that it's an intensive course and weekend's not for shopping but paper reading... I gotta agree with him this time that I should have worked hard during weekend coz it's an intensive course...

Chieu and I started to make the powerpoint at the end of the day and she's kind of nervous about this coz the presentation is actually the exam of the course.

7 Apr 2009 (Tue)

Dr Beatrice fainted all out of a sudden when she was giving a lecture this morning. She just black out and fell on her back... Everybody was shocked, she gained her conscience shortly and refused to go to A&E. Choi was so scared and cried, coz one of her friends actually died after she fainted from a heart attack.

What happened has no doubt reminded me of my own experiences, back then my blood pressure was 76/50...

10 Apr 2009 (Fri)

While everybody enjoys the easter holiday, I woke up early this morning for the intensive course's oral exam. It went smooth and Chieu did much better after my 'training'. Our tutor Chiara was very pleased with our performance. After a long day of presentations, we then went to the Award dinner. Some classmates got so high (natural high) and kept singing karaoke, this's like our last meal together and then the Egyptian, Greek, Iranian, Indian, Korean, Malaysian, Vietnamese, American and we Chinese will part... I enjoyed this course a lot, though it doesn't mean we'd like to have it for one more week. I learnt a lot and have become more enthusiastic for science. I was awarded a book!

It was almost 10 when we finished dinner, Choi and I hurried to meet up Dexter and we got a cab to The Peak, coz it's the last night for Choi to get a night view of HK. It was soooo windy up there but it was nice!

can u be more well-prepared? why u have to say those words in such an inappropriate time and wasted ur chance?! and i found a flaw on it, it is soooooo damn obvious and I can't understand why ur damn eyes couldn't notice?!!!!! >:O

11 Apr 2009 (Sat)

>:[ Went to Cartier.

and you forced me to get a pack of mosturizing masks from Clinique.

back home packing, coz i'm leaving tmr.

you look so sad...

1 Apr 2009 (Wed)
After a day of cell biology and cell biology, I brought Choi to dine with Nicholas and Dexter at Crystal Jade Shanghai Restaurant. Choi loved the food and we had a great time as the guys kept pretending to speak Korean...

2 Apr 2009 (Thu)
830am to 730pm, pratical and lectures.

it's such a nice day.

3 Apr 2009 (Fri)
This morning, an arrogant, schick, modisch, klug und intelligent German came and gave us an impressive lecture. I will never forget his name and his aura.

Political reasons behind scientific research. Money spent to support subprime research.

Anyway, anyhow, i wish the end of world to come asap.
Encountered this guy who reminded me of you, but you no longer weight so i hold myself back and stopped thinking.

To forget and to ignore are different. The latter one involved self-control and power-of-mind.

Looked at slides until 730pm, thanks for waiting me. We had Pho and walked home from Central as usual. Bumped into Mei, and then Kim.

This course exhausts me.

4 Apr 2009 (Sat)
Nicholas brought Choi and I to see the Big Buddha, before that we went to 蓮香樓 for lunch.

Damn crowded as expected, but we enjozed the food and the atmosphere.

So we took MTR to Tung Chung then switched to the Ngon Ping 360 cable car and headed to the Big Buddha.

It's my 1st time to be there too so I'm no different from Choi, curious about everything. Then we had tea at the Po lin Monastery, relax and chat. Choi told us about her life in Korea etc etc.

Nic was so tired after a night of clubbing and the daytrip.

After we sent Choi to meet the other CellBio coursemates, Nic and I went to 錦城 to meet up Dexter for dinner.

Very nice Korean food and again, i drank too much JINRO and some awful plum-Ju, and got a bit drunk. We ended up chilling at Charlie Brown coffee shop.

5 Apr 2009 (Sun)
Great weather.

We met up Nicholas, ManLung and Tony in CWB and had long lunch at Galano Cafe, ma ma day la... Then we took taxi to ApLeiChau to do some warehouses shopping, my 1st time to be there.

Back to CWB and had dinner at Tonkichi, the deep-fried porkchops are disappointing, nothing comparable to Sapporo's 和幸.

20 Mar 2009 (Fri)

lots of discussion after lab meeting, got so much to do again...

We found this in HMV, it's a surprise! We listened to half song and we brought it home.

21 Mar 2009 (Sat)

Met up Thomas at WanChai then we went to Judy's place. Justin and Jasmine were drawing and we got kissed by Jasmine, so sweet!

Then we went to Frankie's wedding banquet, a long long walk from Jordan MTR station, maybe it was becoz of my shoes...

I can never enjoy wedding banquet...

22 Mar 2009 (Sun)

Spent the day working on the AACR poster, then went to uno mas for yummy Spanish food. We had so much Sangria and Martinis. Food was great, tortilla con chorizo, calamar relleno, manchego frito... it was a nice evening except Dexter got stomache again and puked...
what's wrong with u buddy?

24 Mar 2009 (Tue)

禮金? 依家賣女呀?

25 Mar 2009 (Wed)

Went to 30sGroup seminar on High Tech Industry.

事業與產業.

25 Mar 2009 (Wed)

sorry to have made you so exhausted becoz of my recklessness

i'm so sorry

27 Mar 2009 (Fri)

Went to Tim's Kitchen for a simple dinner, then got this Wedding crashers as dessert.

28 Mar 2009 (Sat)

又係時候拜訪沈祖明. 順便叫姑姐join我地去蛇王二食個lunch.

條街好多人, 我又好想死. 回家午睡後到尖東會合Yui去紅館睇Superband concert.

我第一次去紅館睇show jar!

29 Mar 2009 (Sun)

同姑姐姑丈飲茶, 再提供一站式服務: 買notebook, 辦理上網.

Francis到訪. 我即場購下她新買的玩具: Holga flash with filters. 抵玩!

Dexter陪我去中環shop件blazer jacket, 再去食pho.

週末完結.

30 Mar 2009 (Mon)

830am報到Pasteur Insitut Cell Biology Course.

精彩但辛勞的兩星期開始.

31 Mar 2009 (Tue)

All day headache... Thanks for coming, thanks for the massage.

The Boob Song

after a day of busy work, i love to listen to
The Boob Song

19 Feb 2009 (Thu)
Went to this outstanding teaching staff/researchers award ceremony and witness the performance of this very outstanding student, i think we have to endow her the best actress award for her touching acting. ha!
Well, dinner wasn't as bad as i thought, but the food was.

20 Feb 2009 (Fri)

在Grappa's遇到河粉一樣的意粉!

21 Feb 2009 (Sat)

Dexter and I jammed music at home, revising those pieces we used to play everyweek coz Elizabeth was joining us as the vocal. Damon was still melacholish.

After playing jazz, Dexter and I went to Fringe Club for the concert by Kenny's New Flying Machine. A lovely relaxing night. A man who can play and appreciate jazz with you - what's more can i ask for.

22 Feb 2009 (Sun)

Dexter and I went for an hour of squash, after that we were damn exhausted...

23 Feb 2009 (Mon)

Tonight i got my braces removed.

Yeah! Looking forward to the next phase - Invisalign!!!

24 Feb 2009 (Tue)

Dexter's terribly sick...

Buddy pls recover asap!

25 Feb 2009 (Wed)

Went to the US consulate in the morning for visa application.

Judy and Thomas said the interview is much easier than before, and indeed, 2 hours of queuing and waiting, answered 3 to 4 simple questions, we were done and got approved.

Dined with Francis at Al Dente, nice Italian food!

Latter in the night, termites drove a selfish coward mad and made me cry!

Thanks for coming over in the middle of the night just to make sure i'm alright, actually i don't want you to do that coz u're still sick...

26 Feb 2009 (Thu)

Dexter's still very sick...

Start wearing retainer until my Invisaligh cases are ready, kind of uncomfortable.

27 Feb 2009 (Fri)

與腸胃炎的你共進晚餐.

沒有人一起分享美食是很慘的.

儘管如此, 我還是一個人完成了二人份的蔥爆羊肉蓋交飯, 四分一份香蔥雞絲拉麵和一份小棠菜...

你送了我一片葉.

28 Feb 2009 (Sat)

Apartment searching is a tiring task...

i don't like to look around for flats...

你說這片葉會長很多葉來.

1 Mar 2009 (Sun)

它們, 比想像中高貴同滑.

2 Mar 2009 (Mon)

受夠煙霧瀰漫的家了

Got the tickets to USA

5 Mar 2009 (Thu)

Dinner with Phoebe, haven't seen her for long long time...

hope things work out fine for her.

I thought i sounded so happy when u called but u didn't agree.

7 Mar 2009 (Sat)

Kylie came to the studio. She's the potential keyboardist as i will not be jamming music soon. Elizabeth sang so great and made me felt so much more jazzy.

Tonight is my last jamming session, many thoughts running in my head, good and bad.

Then Dexter and I went to Fringe club for drinks, NicNic and ArLung joined us after their post-speeddate dinner.

Courting is a realistic game, most of the time.

8 Mar 2009 (Sun)

蠢鈍的你令我有點點傷心.

Did a little water-colour drawing in the afternoon.

晚上雪雪凍, 去梨花園整番個人蔘雞湯先!

9 Mar 2009 (Mon)

u sent me 'fxxk u'

and i say fxxk u it's too late, too late to realize what harm you've done

u'd better be smarter from now on

sometimes you're just too gullable

11 Mar 2009 (Wed)
Woke up early in the morning for work, learnt from an expert to inject cancer cells directly into mouse's liver. It is very difficult as the liver is such a delicate structure.

收到媽媽電話, 我崩潰咗.

喊到收唔到聲...

Went to Triple O's for burger, not comparable to Shake'em Buns ofcoz...

but great food wouldn't make a difference as i was so mentally broke.

Then went to Soho and got the ArtWalk tickets from John, he looked great!
Seeing art made me forget what bothered me, for a while i was recovered but once i got home, troubles began...

negotiations and quarrels till 1am, everybody was tired.

Thanks for being with me.

12 Mar 2009 (Thu)

鬧劇告一段落

13 Mar 2009 (Fri)
Together with the expert, we operated 10 mice. This time i found it less difficult.

安靜的friday night.

14 Mar 2009 (Sat)

去蓮香樓飲茶

一盅兩件, 鴨脾湯飯

:)

小睡片刻, 但最後睡過頭...

BT飯聚, happy la ofcoz!

sorry that i still feel bad when i heard his name, i don't mean to be a meanie...

maybe later i'll forget about the way he treated me and be fine with him again.

15 Mar 2009 (Sun)

三小時的Watchmen又幾ok喎!

BLT鋸排, 好失望... even Wagyu都cannot...

你踩到我, 本來好少事, 但係我好很嬲.

點解你咁唔小心? 點解我脾氣咁差?

要改善一下, 大家.

16 Mar 2009 (Mon)

Breakfast

followed by a long long nap...

本想到黃泥涌水塘公園踩鴨仔一嘗你心願, 可惜我地太遲, 人地都closed啦...

正當好失望之際, Elizabeth來電邀我們與她和Steven共進bday dinner.

去太古城食上海菜, 唔錯呀.

the feeling of being so close yet far away hit me sometimes, but maybe i'm the one who drifted away from time to time...

confused...

1 Feb 2009 (Sun)
個頭依然痛, 忽冷忽熱....
不停有人响我耳邊唱崖之上之波兒主題曲...
向黃氏拜個年, 喝過 一大杯花旗蔘茶後個人開始怪怪地... 番到屋企肚痛作嘔發燒忽冷忽熱... 唔通係食物中毒? 唔通係津津???
Thanks for taking care of me.

4 Feb 2009 (Wed)
again, love is hard.


5 Feb 2009 (Thu)
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button



很平實的一套戲, 讓人反思什麼才是一生中重要的事, 如何能活得精彩, 諸如此類諸如此類...
沒有新的得著, 但仍然很enjoy. 只是受不了Cate Blanchett扮18-22... 扮英女皇好, 扮BobDylan好, 麻煩妳以後都唔好扮後生.

你睇完套戲攬住我係咁喊, 我...

6 Feb 2009 (Fri)
多得Jackson朋友放飛機, 我先可以買到兩張Chicago Symphony Orchestra嘅飛. 是夜表演為 Mozart - Symphony No. 41 同 Richard Strauss - Ein Heldenleben. 第一次坐背台, 唔多掂, 不過好過冇得聽. 多謝明星的講解. Dexter第一次聽Classical music concert, 佢話完全唔同層次. 係呀, 其實pop/rock/folk etc, 功力上嚟講係d好渣嘅嘢. Hope you like it.



7 Feb 2009 (Sat)
睇完沈祖明, 去咗Suzuki Cafe醫肚. Pasta & pizza意外的好吃. 至於杯black coffee, cannot cannot.
好憎你冇記性.

8 Feb 2009 (Sun)
damn it! i was thrilled!!! >:D


會合偉哥同Danny仔去生記飯店dinner, 美味美味!!! Dexter同偉哥, 兩個都對product design有興趣, 好啱傾. 奇怪地你同人啱傾時就表現得好緊張... 成個女仔咁. >:D


9 Feb 2009 (Mon)
Got Uncle Caleb's email, so I spent the whole morning talking to agent, arranging Judy, Thomas and my flight tickets, calling secretary to get me a departmental approval letter... then we'll have to apply for a visiting visa.

11 Feb 2009 (Wed)
Dexter and I went to Chick Correa, John McLaughlin and the Five Peace Band concert. Conclusion: Contemporary jazz ain't our cup of tea.

13 Feb 2009 (Fri)
Tonight Dexter made us fried soba with squid balls & crab fillet, together with the grapefruit soysauce/peanut salad sauce dipped cabbages, it was a perfect dinner.

14 Feb 2009 (Sat)
Valentine's Day - to us it's only another Saturday... basically we lazed till 4pm and got to Stanley at 5 for late brunch... yeh, bruch at 5... Cooked dinner at 8, we had the superior lampchop - the best i've ever had!!! Pasta and red wine, another perfect meal!!!

15 Feb 2009 (Sun)
Today is Adonis's big day!!! We BT guys went to his wedding ceremony, took some photos with the happy couple. Then we went yum cha at 名都, there Jackson the priest gave his speech and blessing.


Some of us then moved on to 金鳳 for the iced milk tea. It was very happy to see the BT friends, we just be silly and crazy and we laugh!!!
Watched SEVEN POUNDS, both of us didn't buy the concept but the movie did made us shed some tears. We then had cabbages and ramen for dinner. What a nice weekend~~~

16 Feb 2009 (Mon)
We started checking things out. You were so excited, kept jumping and smiling.

18 Feb 2009 (Wed)
是夜去咗蘭桂明珠食越南嘢. 行番屋企途中經過Cafe O, 我仲想再飲個Smoothie食個muffin.
生虫啦我...
相中男子對於我的食量感到恐懼.

1 Jan 2009 (Thu)

Had grandma's congee as breakfast.

We met up super-damn cute baby family and NicNic in central and headed to Discovery Bay.

We walked slowly as Hilary walked sooo slowly...

We met this hyperactive-B at the swing field, who kept laughing as she swinged high. (Note her socks, they pretended to be shoes!)

Check out this gay-couple, swinging babe at the swing field.

Then we had a nice dinner, though it was cold.

DB is a nice place to live maybe.

2 Jan 2009 (Fri)

看過姨媽的後現代生活後, 我們抱著淡淡的悲哀睡覺.

3 Jan 2009 (Sat)
spent the whole day doing wall painting (one side only!)

it's a good experience but i believe we'll never ever do that again!!!

4 Jan 2009 (Sun)

Took grandma out for lunch, we then went home to do some cleaning.

For dinner we went to TST and had Korean food in Sue. They serve Korean 家常菜, simple and nice.

6 Jan 2009 (Tue)

Editorial board sent the review back, just need to make some minor amendments. Both Judy and I are happy that we made it.

Back home and saw the Madagascar penguin standing in my room! It's my sister McDonald's HappyMeal gift. I love that mischievous penguin! My sis thinks it looks like me... So i'm gonna collect the whole Madagascar set!!! The last time I got determined for a whole set Happy Meal gifts was the soccer game.

9 Jan 2009 (Fri)

Lamb hotpot dinner with Danger family and NicNic. Hilary became so popular in the restaurant, evey staff was so 'lum-ed' by her as she kept doing that hip-hop finger move...

10 Jan 2009 (Sat)

Went to Lab then had lunch in McDonald's coz I could collect my last Madagascar toy. Damon seemed depressed, seeing everything with his grey filter. Without Eric, jazz jamming became so boring and i've gradually lost the passion... just wonder if i'd ever pick up jazz piano again...

11 Jan 2009 (Sun)

Went hiking at Lamma island with Dexter and NicNic, it was our first time visiting the windmill. Were going to drop by Robin's place, but then it was getting late and we had to take that ferry back to Central. Had dinner in Outback, with MeatLover and cheese bacon fries and red wine, we all got high. Then they brainstormed the first plan for Wong's Co.

講多無謂, 最緊要快.

不過, 以你地嘅做事態度, 我睇都係唔得架啦.

12 Jan 2009 (Mon)

做錯咗仲要發脾氣, 抵打.

13 Jan 2009 (Tue)

Judy's bday, we went to ChiFu's Maxim had lunch.

Met up Ivy for dinner and we spent the rest of the night sipping coffee, working out details for our Okinawa trip.

17 Jan 2009 (Sat)

去咗蛇王二食晏, 湯水正.

我行行吓好悶發脾氣, 係好唔啱. 對不起了.

去咗蘭芳茶餐廳, 西多奶茶.

响Cafe Habitu meet up Angie. 佢又走啦, 今次去Aachen工作, 好羨慕!

18 Jan 2009 (Sun)

正仆街! 差d俾你激到斷氣!!! 下次唔止罰跳舞!!!!!!!

睇完I'm Not There (都幾悶, 太長啦...), 收到細叔入院的消息.

19 Jan 2009 (Mon)

去完clinic攞旅行藥包, 再去銀行換yen.

即興會合Francis去食Pho. 感謝她那 4GB USB作為對窮苦學生的物資捐助.

被Thomas那老奉態度激死.

番到屋企竟然見到daddy mommy & sis. 咁齊人於是拉埋嫲嫲落街食小菜.

21 Jan 2009 (Wed)

吵了架. 吃過餃子. 就這樣, 7個月.

22 Jan 2009 (Thu)

Uncle received cardiac operation, everything went smooth. :)

Went to dentist, so damn painful...

Had dinner in Al Fresco, nice food nice price, and their cheesecake is even better than Mandarin Oriental's! What a surprise!

23 - 29 Jan 2009

Okinawa

希望此行有機會於Wanderlust出現, 因為前面仲有Spain, NewZealand, Hokkaido...

29 Jan 09 (Thu)

I won't forget the night.

30 Jan 09 (Fri)

Tooth was so painful that got me headache... went to dentist and got it fixed, just a slight twist of the wire can lead to such a rapid change of tooth movement and cause pain...

Thanks for being my company.

31 Jan 09 (Sat)

番Lab做嘢, 個頭繼續痛.

會合Danger Family & NicNic去林村, 第一次去睇許願樹, 不過我冇玩許願. 矖到希拉利咁樣樣...

去完火車博物館, 再去火炭津津dinner.

頭超痛, 唔舒服...

人同咸魚的分別在於

人有夢想, 再實現夢想
有計劃而非formula

好刺激呀!!!

26 Dec 2008 (Fri)
Danger family in danger... 飯局談判幸好成功, 希望自此之後風平浪靜啦...

一額汗咁離開潮樓, Nicnic, Dexter, 我, Yuki&希拉利就去咗WorldTrade影貼紙相啦. 我部Softbank終於發揮功用 - infrared file transfer...

上咗去Maid Date Cafe, d女僕妹妹並不是我expect嗰種kawaii kawaii的... 當然, 我明白人地都係打份工啫, 但係我都幾失望. 影張相仲話要$10喎.

晚上去咗Dexter同事屋企sushi+hotpot, 好多海鮮呀. 難忘鮑魚嗰條綠色嘅屎. 睇咗套blueray功夫熊貓, 做得好靚, 故事冇涵, 最啱小朋友睇.

27 Dec 2008 (Sat)
Went to LanGwaiFong to pick up the Haagen Daz icecream choco-fondue and headed to Amy's place. That thing's so heavy, though i wasn't the one who carried it. :P

When we got there, Amy and her kitchen crew were busy preparing for the hotpot. The food was great and i really like the 牛扒邊 indtroduced by 張浩良, and he also made us tasty lemon tea. Highlight of the night was gift exchange ofcoz. Everytime someone suggests to exchange gift, someone must have bought some weird gifts to make fun of the unfortunate one who got his gift. His wife has also picked up this nasty habit 所謂近墨者黑, this year the couple brought us 倪震-絕頂愛情 & 霸王洗髮露... Ofcoz, some of us have also prepared some gifts even more 'funny' like 搶底褲遊戲... We had a great time as usual and ended the night with the lovely icecream choco-fondue.

28 Dec 2008 (Sun)
番lab做完嘢落咗灣仔. 去到龍門大酒樓太晏冇哂點心, 於是Dexter話去綠屋豪華茶餐廳.

食咗西多奶油多, 飲咗杯唔好飲嘅茶走, 行多陣就返歸啦.
we have made up our mind.

29 Dec 2008 (Mon)
越諗越覺唔妥.

事情又點會咁簡單.

30 Dec 2008 (Tue)
訓得好差.

今日殺咗15隻鼠.

對住一個諗住靠屋企, 做重要決定唔用腦計劃吓嘅人, 我覺得很倒胃. 心情再度位於低位.

Ivy贈我2張Twilight戲飛, 朗豪坊, 逼到爆.

套戲悶到抽筋, 好彩唔使錢.

it's damn easy for me to plan for myself, i know my options and ability.
but when it comes to a plan for 2, there's so much more to consider.
we decided to work this out together.

31 Dec 2008 (Wed)
went yum cha at 龍門大酒樓, then we went to Citysuper and got some nice lambchop.
I tried to make a new dish - mashed potato blended with cheddar cheese and onion, it's super yummy i swear!

In lieu of making new year resolution, we reviewed what had happened in our past 20+ years and concluded that we're so fortuned.

most of the circumstances in life

it's useless to complain or indulge in self-pity.
i try hard to avoid, but then things turn out to be the same.
no surprises.

is it just another day?

Just wonder
if it had ever happened to you,
that you wake up and find yourself in an alienated mood,
not too sure why you're breathing, things seem so unfamiliar to you, your blanket, your bed, your room, your body and your thoughts...
and then you would say, good morning stranger.
is it just another day?

14 Dec 2008 (Sun)

司機pick up我地上山頂同Ivy傾沖繩之旅嘅住宿. 傾完之後auntie攞咗個mini-Mandarin Oriental cheesecake 出嚟share. 仲show咗Ivy個birthday Napolean cake 俾我地睇, 叫我地留低一齊bbq同食蛋糕, 如果唔係會好regret喎, haha... 不過Dexter喉嚨痛我唯有好regret咁同佢地say gdbye la. 話說司機入咗深井買燒鵝 (冇錯, 係深井!), 所以我地自己搭車去CWB Xmas gifts shopping. 買咗好多M&S餅乾, 全因個餅盒上嘅pop art!

我仲有一件old school cardigans做聖誕禮物tim! Thank you!

15 Dec 2008 (Mon)

Went to Elizabeth&Steven's place for Xmas party with the Turner's IT team. They treated us with delicious Devil eggs, Spaghetti (Atlanta home-recipe?!) and lots of beer. Had a great time. :)

18 Dec 2008 (Thu)

Dept Xmas lunch, 一年比一年求其.

19 Dec 2008 (Fri)
去咗何洪記食靚粥. 當年讀緊中學個陣唔多零用錢, 要同朋友share一碗架!

希望你喉嚨5d好番啦.

20 Dec 2008 (Sat)

早上去了孫公公的喪禮, 還記得小時候到他家吃他包的餃子, 看他造的模型船.

然後會合Dexter到火頭山吃拉麵, 跟旭川本店是兩回事...cannot cannot.

我之後仲氣沖沖咁吞咗個蛋tart!

晚上跟Eric最後一次jam歌. 腦內突然浮現很多事情, 心情極之低落.

21 Dec 2008 (Mon)

冬至家庭聚餐.
今年媽咪終於冇遲到啦, 仲早到引起大家恐慌以為會冇位... 頂你我訂咗位啦!

潮州人食德記好啱feel.

22 Dec 2008 (Tue)

涮羊肉, 兩個人k.o.咗一斤呀!!! 仲有粉絲, tofu, 餃子, 雜錦丸, 大支啤酒.

天呀, 我倆捧住個肚走.

24 Dec 2008 (Wed)

去睇沈祖明之前又去咗湖舟lunch, 個糯米飯好得!

去Sogo買扒, 好多人呢...

牛扒紅酒Blueberry cheesecake, 在家中渡過寧靜的Xmas eve.

25 Dec 2008 (Thu)

聖誕節我倆決定去行山, 活動一下. 是日挑戰為東區步行道, 其實响dexter office對面, 但係佢未行過囉. 3小時行咗~9km, 好多冤枉路呀, 都係因為有人冇準備好同睇錯地圖... 算啦, 當做多d運動囉.

差d唔可以準時同Nicnic食飯. 去咗新曼谷食好味嘅Thai菜. 第一次唔使等位, d人去唒食romantic大餐啦! 最後大家再去食番件cake. :)

Merry Xmas!!!

我病得厲害時, 便像小朋友一樣, 會哭.
不受控的哭.
你幫我蓋好被, 在旁說故事給我聽, 我便睡著了.
一覺醒來, 好得多了.
在此, 我衷心多謝C9kei的照顧.
:'-)

Take it, or leave it.

"小亮令我覺得他是一個 real man，在美國生活了 10 年，他經歷過無數次的考驗，一個人能夠從零開始的生活，真的不容易，最令我觸動的是，他以前開長途車，要過一晚夜的話，就在路邊，在車子內睡一覺，因為他說租地方貴，不想浪費錢，我突然很心痛，這個男孩到底經歷過幾多呢？而我是不知道的……
在美國開始生活真的不容易，租房子貴得要命，這麼貴，我們負擔不起生活費啊！小亮建議我出外工作，我很害怕，我第一次到美國去，環境還沒有適應好，就開始找工作了，我在這裡住了兩星期而已…… 誰說到美國生活就是享福？！生活迫人啊！"

讀著低音結他手妻子的日誌, 心裡替他們緊張焦急, 但不知怎的, 也覺得興奮.
看到朋友為理想奮鬥, 每天都要解決不同的困難 (當然出外靠朋友, 但要有可靠的朋友不容易. 定必是Eric以前積下的福!), 更重要的是另一半放棄事業家人跟他一起去努力...

我, 有自己的目標和夢想, 有一直在追求的事情.
我, 一直在努力, 看似放棄了很多機會, 但我清楚知道是在預備得更好, 在一個適當的時侯行動.
因為我不是鬧著玩, 是認真考慮計劃過的.
而且我知道是可行的, 絕不是妄想.
星爺話, 人沒有夢想跟咸魚沒有分別.
現在, 我已是將夢想化為現實的當中.

人家跟我說:
如果你在外國待久一點, 便會受不了. 很悶的. 所以我呀, 我家人都回來了...
如果你在外國工作, 只會獲分配基層角色, 不能發揮所長. 所以我呀, 回來找工作了...
如果你在外國生活, 不容易交到好朋友, 因為始終有種族歧視...
等等等等...

我討厭.

我, 在外國確實只待了一段短日子, 自由行經驗也只不過多人一點點.
但是, 當聽到以上說話時, 我不由自主地在心裡反駁: 那是因為你做不到, 不等同我做不到.
根據我個人有限的經驗, 我認為, 只要你打開自己去融入新的環境, 沒有人會不喜歡跟你交朋友. 因為你是不同, 人家對你更有興趣. 至於工作方面, 那便看你的能耐了.
如果一開始你便充滿恐懼成見, 只會什麼都做不了. 在那裡, 做什麼, 也都一樣.
一樣的那副可憐老樣子.

可能是物以類聚, 身邊有不少人是獨個兒去闖的.
他們, 朋友圈子擴闊了, 事業也建立了, 眼光也放遠了.
那為何不想想, 自己為什麼不能有人家那美好的收穫?

我會繼續為自己負責, 為自己定下的目標努力. 過程不是容易的, 但那又如何?
因為to the best of my knowledge, 我能做到一般人認為不可能的事.

我不是女強人. 只是個實現理想不空談的普通人.

6 Dec 2008 (Sat)
番lab做咗5分鐘嘢, 跟住去TST同黃生黃太飲茶. 黃生憶述當年到Mexico公幹的遊歷, 雖然回憶非常的fragmented, 不過第一次聽佢講咁多嘢, 唔錯唔錯.

然後去DFS, 冇嘢啱. 到處都是sale sale sale. 古池外面人多打蛇餅, 費事排隊冇睇到.
Dexter去夾band, 我就留响屋企準備presentation同 scholarship application...

7 Dec 2008 (Sun)
嫲嫲炒河粉, 超好味!
晚上到大欖燒烤farewell Eric. 食物很難吃, 唔緊要, 最重要是farewell朋友.

轉眼間他便要到美國讀PhD, 夾band時將少了他的笑聲和bass...

我們討論著本地最高學府之科研環境如何不利scientists, 美國確實diverse得多, 不過金融風暴之下... 唯有寄望將來, 繼續尋找合適的地方...

10 Dec 2008 (Wed)
Early in the morning, i got an email from Judy, saying that we need to hand in a review before Xmas. WHAT?!?! Impossible?!?! I was hoping we could delay it, but if we delay it it means we'll have to work during Xmas and New Year holiday... oh no...

Then came the 13th Research Post-Graduate Symposium, gave a 2min poster presentation, faster than a needle jab...

After work the whole lab went to Lamma Island for seafood dinner, Prof Ng's treat.

Judy's back from Korea and looks happier and prettier. Both of us were worried about the review coz we haven't started at all... On our way back we talked about my project, I told her there're actually lots of works to do here and all are pospective, going to exchange might just slow down the project. She said indeed and suggested me to focus, get some plublications asap and put up the exchange plan, after all I can go post-doc overseas. I agree with this actually and she said besides Dexter, she's also very happy about my stay. -__-"

11 Dec 2008 (Thu)
Judy discussed the details of the review with me, one word: GUM!!!

Dined with Francis at 神谷, then we hurried back home to play with her new toys - the Canon camera. 17mm wide angle 果然是很不同喔!!!

也為Jana拍下很多沙龍照~~~

13 Dec 2008 (Sat)
Hiking day:
We started from 石澳, hiked along 龍脊 to 大浪灣.

It's an easy track. 到著予想為3小時, 我們2小時便完成了!

以西多和蛋tart作結! :D

再一次, Dexter夾band, 我就留响屋企寫review...

L'amour

Schlaf Gut.